What is Trauma? inspired by Gabor Maté ‘The Myth of Normal; Trauma, Illness, & Healing in a Toxic Culture’
the greek word for trauma is ‘wound’
overtime said wounds become a tyranny of the past
your past that’s frozen behind glass
a permanent reminder of your now invisible timeline.
“Trauma is not what happens to you but what happens inside you”
our traumatic encoding stays with us
on our bodies
in the depths of our brains
internal scars that never fade
but grow weary and blurred over time,
but as time passes
new external scars grow
and old scars become replaced by textured scar tissue
or on occasion they stay raw until force healed.
trauma has become seen as a norm in modern day
“someone without the marks of trauma would be an outlier in our society”
some scars cut too deep to ever fade away
the feeling of his hands trapping your arms to your side
break.
feeling the rush of a red line after a slash
break.
being betrayed but ones you once trusted with your fragile heart
break.
relying on a drug to escape reality until there is no more escape
break.
looking across in the mirror and seeing a stranger
break.
“trauma until we work it through…”
the uncomfortable we walk through
the uncomfortable we talk through,
trained professionals listening to us go down the rabbit hole
reassuring us it was never our fault
that we never asked for it,
any of it.
feeling stuck to the point you’re walking through glue
loneliness entangles with hopelessness
to connect back to our bodies after severing from our mind
to repair the cracked lense we were surviving life through
a glow stick has to break before it glows
but how much can one soul take
before it shuts down
over and over and over again
until there is nothing left
until you are a walking piece of someone you once were,
trying to find your way back
fighting through the cracks
searching for the person you long to be,
to bring life back to thee?
